I can't say

You ask
But I can't tell.

I don't know.
I am not aware.

You don't know me well enough
But how well do I know myself?

At least here,
now,
with you.

How can I be a director,
a master,
a commander,
when I don't know,
when I haven't felt?

Show me?
Teach me?
Help me feel?