Volviendo a la realidad

02 January 2009

I have resolved for this year to continue the strong relationships that I have built so far in my life. To do so, I captured the advice of several key friends and following them, I believe a blog seems most accessible and encouraging to maintaining these links.

So, after spending the first day of the New Year in an airport bringing me back to reality--academics, research, and friends in Philadelphia, I am trying to link my multiple realities--my homes. Leaving Florida, my home for 18 years and 2 weeks this winter, I felt conflicting emotions. Had I really accomplished everything that I had set out to do?
Before returning to my former reality, refastening the loose ties on old relationships really frightened me. How much have I changed as a person? How much have I matured into a fresh self, the self that will likely stay with me for years to come.
But, I stuck my toes in my past, like beginning to immerse myself in the cool waters of an ocean. And I quickly warmed up. I saw friends who struggled with me throughout high school, friends I had known since I was 12 but neglected to dependently fasten to. I saw those friends to whom I never revealed my most trying vulnerabilities, friends who've seen me superficially, and friends who've known me since my very first breaths.

And what have I learned? Take advantage of every second you have with those you love. Rise early and fill your days with adventures and situations that foster a mutual dependence. I am starting that officially today. My Florida home is something I know that I can always return to, and my Philadelphia home is something that I am starting to build. Both are pivotal to my life now and in the future.

So, thank you to all of my dear friends who have so willingly welcomed me back. Thank you for recognizing my new drives and motivations. And thank you for helping me add on to them.