Culpabilidad

I feel awful!
Yesterday upon waking up, I realized that someone from PLBD had sent out an e mail reminding us to update the officers blog. So, trying to be the people pleaser that I am, I went to work on responding to the questions he had posed. I also answered some questions that others had asked on the same e mail.
Then, later that night, to my dismay the Team Captain approached me with a serious face. It turns out he had sent out a separate e mail informing us not to post material that the former person and I had posted. I just wanted to cry. How can people pleasing take me to such the wrong places?
I had just gotten through a day in which I was happy because I hadn't been making too many mistakes. I single-handedly organized a speaking event for Casa, I had successfully organized all privates for the week, and I thought I had helped out the board earlier that morning.
I also felt bad because I ignored something another PLBD board member had shared with us about the purpose of the blog. And it was her birthday they day before, so my ignorance was clearly unjustified.
How can I be such a bad human being. An ignorant sac of people pleasing toadiness?

Soledad

February 16--
Why do waves of loneliness drown me?
Why do waves of loneliness drown me?
Why do my eyes feel tired from crying when I have not shed a tear?
Why do I only shallowly complete my tasks?
Why do waves of loneliness drown me?